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I wrote something in my hangout, because it was a bit more serious, otherwise I would have posted it here. I had been wondering if there was a serious talk sub forum. Anyway, I would be happy to talk and listen here. :3 It just has been on my mind for a long time, this slight vent.I hope this is okay to talk about just a little bit, but... there is a certain site that was deeply involved with my trauma and shame, although I love it so much. I am in a discord server of it with my friends, yet they don't like that site owner any more...The site did obscure a lot of my understanding and organization of how I usually live life in general. It also, in the beginning, was a beacon of beautiful light of being friends with a community after previous trauma, and gave me courage to step out a little into another older really negative community again. I understand that owner will let me back in, perhaps just me. He saw I was putting a lot of love and energy in his site, and I needed to put some of that into organising other important parts of my life. Yet contradictorily, it violently tore at me at how his lack of communication for that long and having the outside treat me so terribly, contradicted my values. Because of how prolonged and mixed signal my experience with the site was... I am going to write a thread letter that carefully and maturely and yet although honest, I will write it more carefully. It will say my feelings / journey about the site, and have it open for discussion ; put it in general chat, so it shows up on recent topics (I will then add for people to actually physically respond to it if they want, so I can see myself and them in that specific community so it is not like a haunting town by itself because otherwise the overstimulation of the outside is very aggressive) -- an intersectionality window to also clearly see my overall surroundings, and pierce through the endless notes (which are like a stairwell) to be in that choir room of a community again. I have also been reading through the site history and lore, beyond the worst times of my life.

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