Banni's making a hangout too

[Fuu-Chan]

@Banni
Same here. And then in my head I am thinking "Why would anyone be friends with me?
I am not interesting or cool at all."
Yeah, thanks self-confidence thoughts e.e

Yeah, I often want to be remembered by certain people.
I use to be and I had a friend who always surprised me with messages when I least expected it
and it was really nice and then he forgets who I am and that just kind of make me like "Okay I really
don't need people who don't know or forget who I am after 1 or so months" e.e

Well, of course I remember you.
I remember our talks and I remember I really related to you which is why I remember you so much. :3

And this friends who claims he is always there for me, he is often making me feel stupid.
In fact he does call me stupid.
And being called stupid, it's something that brings up a lot in my past.
My mind works slow and often people called me stupid for that ~-~

Not to mention he only cares about himself.
He thinks the phrase "being there for me" is gonna get him brownie points e.e

[Blue Jay]

*stretches* Man so much catching up to do!

Haha nah it was just the color thing for me. I'm Blue Jay so being red just feels weird except for Valentines day itself!

[Banni]

Spyridon
Ohh do you? Which site do you think? c:
I've been around

~Fuu
Yeah I get the same thoughts.
I mean I know my husband cares and he thinks about me and messages me a lot even though we live together. But it's a different feeling.
It's different when it's a friend who hasn't committed to knowing you, doesn't have to like you, but does anyways.

There's my best friend, but she's across the country, same story for all my internet friends.
I miss going out or playing games with someone, just on a friend level. I'm so lonely in that sense ;3;

its like so bad that I recently got invited to my coworker's house for a movie night with him and another coworker we like. BUT THEN I NEVER HEARD FROM THEM AGAIN T~T I got so excited

I did really like talking with you, so I do remembered you easy :> ♥
I'm sorry that your friend didn't though, I just don't understand how people are like that

~Jay
I think I saw the red one for a second, cause I was thinking YOU'RE NOT BLUE JAY YOU'RE RED >O

[Fuu-Chan]

@Banni
Exactly. I know my sister cares about me.
She is like my only friend in rl.

I like people who you don't expect to message me, etc.
It's a nice feeling when someone you least expect or someone you just don't expect at all
to message you. It's nice. Especially when people like us have a very little to no friends at all ;3;

I am the very definition of lonely ;3;
Sometimes I just want to talk about nonesense with someone XD

Now that is just mean and cruel.
I'd be kicking their asses if I was there.
Literally, I am not someone to piss off so if anyone ever was mean to me or my friends
It would be the worst mistake of their life.

I can be a real bitch sometimes XDD

I am happy I was remembered
Well, you loose and earn some as they say.

Yeah, I don't understand. He treats me like a child even though I am 20 e.e
I hate people who treat me like a child because then they are no better then my relatives.

[Blue Jay]

Yeah I had the red one for about a good hour before I switched to Blue again. XD

[Banni]

~Jay
xD haha I'm still green cause I'm my OC
: D

~Fuu
Yeah I agree, it is the best feeling ;v;
Even if they are just an internet, it still feels lovely!
and then cue me turning around and squealing at hubby cos someone likes me xD

Yeah, I love talking nonsense. Maybe it's that weird sense of humor I have that drives people away idk
like it makes people laugh but then it's like errr shut up Banni
XD
Husband got a new zombie video game and I successfully made the entire story plot and every event in it about trying to get a burrito.

I know they didn't do it intentionally, they just legit forgot lol
or maybe I got too excited and made them annoyed idk, I didn't think I acted excited.

so can I no worries xD

my relatives are that way too. And they also ignore me and treat me poorly lol I think I just annoy them cause I'm not girly like them. They're really shallow

[Spyridon]

Were you by chance Cherri Banni? (Forgive me if I misspell it)

[Banni]

Spyridon
Yup~ I am CherryBanni in a few places
Gaia, Ernya, and various random MMO's :>

[Fuu-Chan]

@Banni
Exactly
one of my ex's came back into my life and said he wanted to be friends.
Though this ex was the one who broke my heart and yet i still do have feelings for him
and of course I act like "Hmph, I don't wanna be friends"
And inside I feel "PLEASE BE MY FRIEND FOR THE LOVE OF GOD."

So he usually talks to me now when I do feel lonely.
But he ended up disappearing on me for 3 days now ;3;
So I am back to being lonely u.u

I ramble and start talking about weird stuff
like scenes i like in shows and stuff so I guess i scare people off because I am so weird and introverted. ._.

XD that's hilarious x3

Yeah. I feel like most of my online friendships I ruined because I tell myself "don't get your hopes up"
and stuff so I distant myself and maybe they noticed.
//shrugs//

My relatives are quite shallow, judgemental etc.
basically, if I am not my cousin, I am not worth even worth being treated nicely.
they always act like I never take care of myself like taking care of my acne or whatever.
They also act and talk to me like I am stupid e.e

Basically if I don't do what they say, I am stupid >~>
So I am just like Whatever I dun need chu!

[Blue Jay]

Your so cute though Banni! *hugs*

[Spyridon]

That's what I thought. Can't recall the name of the site I know you from.

I switch usernames often.

[Banni]

~Jay
Hehe thank you >//v< ♥

~Spyridon
Ooh who knows what it was~ I don't recognize your username sadly but that's okay
Maybe something can give me a clue ;v;
I dont remember all the sites I was cherrybanni on... roliana, tentacl (maybe?)... -ponders

~Fuu
Yeah omg that reminds me my ex did the same thing last year!
he and I didn't leave on bad terms though, so it was easy to chat with him and not awkward. I don't have feelings for him anymore so that helps too XD''

Aww maybe irl called for him? Sometimes I poof for a few days too, especially when I get sad, and I avoid people ;~;
I don't even tell my husband when I'm upset a lot of the time. He's a very smiley giggly person so I like to keep him that way.

Yeah I'm surprised I didn't get yelled at for talking over the dialogue with annoying idk what accents I was making and making up my own dialogue xDD
"You took too long now Lina has eaten all the burritos"
-old man goes to a laptop- "I can order you some takeout. no burritos but u can have burger"
"WAIT, DO YOU WANT FRIES?"
-runs outside-
"NO I DONT WANT TAKE OUT I WANT BURRITO"
and then events involving thugs and whatnot turn into a quest to take back the burritos 8D

Aww that's terrible D:
stupid families. I went through a great deal of heartbreak last year cause of my family, and realizing just where I stand. It hurt too much because I always cherished the people while growing up.
so I normally choose not to think about it.

[Fuu-Chan]

@Banni
Well, this ex of mine still has feelings for me and I still have feelings for him.
But I am still trying to earn my trust back with him from all that happened between us.
I'd like to think he has changed but it's hard to think he has for what he did Dx

Yeah, probably.
he said he was looking for a job but he always messages me when he gets back and lately
he hasn't so I am just a little worried .-.

Lol. XD
I don't think i would be creative enough to do that.
I am a lazy person XD

When i was younger, i always had a feeling they weren't who they said they were
or everything was just a lie so when i really found out, it didn't hurt me as bad.
My sister however is still recovering from so much emotional trauma they did to her.

[Maro]

/flops dovvn/ mrrrr

[Banni]

~Fuu
I'd be careful with that D:
You don't want to get hurt again, y'know?
Sometimes impressions can feel different but when you get comfortable again it can get worse.
I never date a person twice cause of that x~x

I get that way when I'm with the right people
my bestie and husband bring it out of me. xD
cause we all share the same lame humor and insanity lol
My first conversation when I met my husband was something about hunting pillow monsters at 4am
and jelly beans being our healing potions.
Somehow that made me think this is the one LOL

Oh no D:
hugs to her
yeah in my teen years I was figuring it out but I was in so much denial.
A year ago I flew to FL to see my grama, who literally is my second mom, raised me just as much. I thought she'd be happy to see me. She greeted me by giving me a tour of all the chores I am to do around the house and outside, all while waving a cig in my face like my asthma doesn't matter anymore. She used to never smoke inside or near me when I lived there, or even when I just visited. Then she went out on the back porch and ignored me, any time I tried talking to her it was "did you clean this yet? what about that?"
I finished cleaning everything, and took a long shower just so I can completely break down.

I tried calling her for thanksgiving as well. She sounded bothered and uninterested, and it only lasted a minute before she had to hang up. I went over my parents right after, to find she was on the phone chatting with my sisters.