professor doesn't take late work.
my dad thinks youtube is the only reason, but I know he can't tell the underlying issues.
I did well at the beginning. Then my dad chimed in asking about homework and that put a lot of unnecessary pressure on me and I snowballed.
I told him all the pressure he puts on me isn't helping, but he laughs that off.
He also used to think that yelling and threatening helps. Um, that makes it worse. Like, I'm at a point where I don't even believe in myself so I do go on youtube and watch vids. It's a whole different kind of problem.
He says "you're not cut out to be someone to record film. You lack communication skills because you're not doing too well in communications."
To that I say, (didn't actually say this to him) "wow, what a way to encourage people! I may not know exactly what I want to do, but the reason I lack communication skills is because people scare me. I'm scared people will treat me as harshly as [my dad] does. If it weren't for that, I'd be better with communication."
You wanna know how I see myself 20 years in the future?