The Fairy Garden (1)

[npixelz]

*hugs back, crying a little, not sure if they're tears of sorrow or joy from having so much support*

Not really. And I don't like the outdoors.

But am I worth the pain I've caused?
I'll try.
Ok.
That might work. I don't know.

I lack the motivation to do that, even though I really want to.
I haven't done that much, this community has helped me so much more.
Has it? That really makes me happy to read that.
Same for me.
Thank you. You do, too.
Helping one person isn't enough, I've been helped by so many, that I need to help so many myself.
I suppose it is, but it's not enough. It's never enough. It never will be.
I guess, but I've received so much good already, I can never repay the world enough for it.
Thank you. I'll try.

[Gingerale]

Are you feeling better?

[galled]

It's not about repaying. I don't help out with the idea that I'll be "paid" back one day. Paying it forward is reward enough.

[npixelz]

A little bit.

Maybe... But can I pay it forward enough?

[galled]

You can never give enough, but there's always room to give a little more.

[npixelz]

I just. I WANT to be able to give enough. But I. I just can't. I'll forever be trying to pay it forward, to pay it back, and I'll never do enough. I'll die without it ever being enough. And that scares me.

[galled]

No one can. As long as you do your best that's the most anyone can expect.

[npixelz]

I know that. But something inside of me wants me to try. It gets worse and worse as the days go by. It almost makes me wanna cry. It torments me, and I just. I don't know why.

[Lemon Cheesecake]

Just keep an open heart, there are plenty of opportunities to do good and give back... a kind word, a smile, a pat on the back, opening the door for someone, letting someone ahead of you in the check out line, bringing a meal to a sick neighbor or a new Mom, offering to watch someone's kids so they can clean or go grocery shopping, helping someone clean their place, volunteer, buy someone lunch, send a card of thanks to someone for helping you in the past... so many ways ...I bet you can think of a lot more!

[npixelz]

but is that enough? that's the question my mind always asks. and it always answers with a no, it is not enough.

[Lemon Cheesecake]

well, now you have someone else to play the games with on here... so you can help them out with posting!

[npixelz]

I suppose.

[Lemon Cheesecake]

Pick a team Npixelz! I know you don't like to get splashed but you can throw some water balloons (I don't mind).

[npixelz]

I picked the Royal Guard, but I've only found one other person on the Junior team so far.

[Lemon Cheesecake]

now there seems to be quite a few for Junior's team!