Sometimes I wish my dad would just leave me alone with finding a job. Every single freakin thing is stressing me out and all he says is "I don't think you know what stress is." I've been trying to keep myself calm all day because I failed my spanish test after getting like 10 questions or so wrong because I mixed up a couple of things in Spanish. And the fact I have a hard time reading spanish. And my memory is so terrible as it is that it makes everything worse.
And every time I get a job interview, I always end up doing something wrong apparently, because no matter how hard I try, I can never land a stupid job, not even at a freakin McDonalds. The questions they ask are so stupid, questions I don't really have any experience for or I just don't remember a time I experienced something and when I tell them I don't, I feel like I did something wrong and bombed my chance.
I'm sorry about being all ranty and stuff, but I can't take it anymore. Like, I can't just keep it bottled up inside, like it builds up and I try to keep it where everything's okay. My dad doesn't even know how I'm feeling right now. He can't say I'm not stressed out when this past week I had an interview and had to pack all of my stuff up and move. I can only do so much at a time that expecting me to do many things would be the breaking point. Now, I have to bring up my Spanish grades and try to land a job even though I have NO idea what I did wrong in my interview. I don't know if it's the "I'm a college student with no work experience" or what, but someone needs to freaking hire me, I've been going at this for 5 freaking years now and no one wants to let me pass the interview stage. If they cut all the bs questions out, everything would be so much better. Like "Name a time where you had to solve a problem on your own without any help." And like, I don't have anything where it requires me to do it with no help at all. Like, unless it's a school test, everything else I can ask for help if I needed it and stuff. School is NOTHING like work and I have no work experience because people refuse to hire someone. My dad says I'm getting lazy, and maybe I am, but that's because every interview that ends with no job demotivates me and I just want to be like "Okay, whatever, I don't care anymore. Why even try when no one is nice enough to give me a job?" I have no idea what will become of me after school if I don't get a job. I'm terrified of that thought, but I just can't seem to land a stupid job. I need money like badly.
I just wanted to get this out of my system.........