by npixelz » Tue Apr 09, 2024 2:35 am
“This is an amazingly happy environment,” Yuri says, looking at the vision all around her of an ordinary school life. Birds are singing and evening sun is flooding the room. “It’s too dazzling for me. So, this is how people live. It’s wonderful, isn’t it? I’m envious. If I vanished now, could I start over anew? I wonder if I could accept such obvious happiness.”
The teacher and Hitomi both say her name, as a question, wondering what she’s on about.
“If I lost my memories and got a different personality, I think I could do it,” Yuri continues, ignoring them. “But then, what does it mean to be reborn? Then that isn’t my life anymore. It’s someone else’s life. I only get to live a real life once. And it’s right here.” She indicates her heart.
“I only have one chance.” Yuri’s voice begins to sound desperate, but still quiet. “This is my life. I can’t entrust it to someone. I can’t steal a new one. I can’t force it on others. I can’t forget it or erase it. I can’t stomp over it, laugh it off, or beautify it.” Her voice rises. “I can’t do anything! I have to accept my one shot at life, no matter how cruel and merciless it was.”
Yuri looks at the teacher and asks, “Do you understand? This is why I must fight. I must continue fighting! Because I can never accept that life!”
Yuri Nakamura, Angel Beats