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[Lemon Cheesecake]

we all pretty well lead busy lives, thats for sure.

[yorunaka]

Except me, I guess haha.

But it's temporary for me.

[Lemon Cheesecake]

you said you were working - are you looking for new work? Most on here are still at school.

[yorunaka]

I quit my previous job and decided for a 1 year break to sort myself out. I still don't know what I'd like to do though and my self imposed deadline is coming up.

I'm probably older than most people here if that's the case.

[Lemon Cheesecake]

so what have you been trying in the past year? Have you taken any continuing education classes or gotten any certifications? Worked any volunteer or temp jobs to see if those are areas you'd like to be? Taken any trips to see if you want to live somewhere else?

[yorunaka]

More like I tried to do freelance drawing - just to see if I really wanted it. After a few months, I sorta spiraled into a wreck because I felt I wasn't improving even if I'm putting in work hours on it. Plus, with freelancing, you deal with a lot of rejections. I mean I already knew that to be the case and thought I was ready but at the end of the day, I would think why people rejected me. Was it because they just didn't like my style? Were my prices too expensive? Or do I really just suck and I shouldn't be doing this after all?

The last thing I ever draw that I was actually pretty proud of was [url="http://yorunaka.deviantart.com/art/bnha-royalty-657540708]this piece[/url]. After that, I somehow couldn't draw anything remotely good again by my standards. So couple my feeling down about being in a slump and constant rejections, I just lost motivation, I guess

I used to work in different places so I know that my hometown is a place I actually like living in. I don't really like staying with my parents though. On a practical perspective, it's great since even if I contribute money, it's still less than what I have to spend if I live alone. But my dad can be draining to live with sometimes.

There aren't a lot of jobs here though. At least not the type of job I finished university for. I've thought about teaching but my ability of communicating to several people (who have low attention spans on top of everything) is pretty low.

Main thing I understood from this break though is that I really have nothing I particularly REALLY want to do and achieve. I mean I already thought that was the case even before - many years back. But now I TRULY do know it's the case.

[Lemon Cheesecake]

well, there are different age groups and different subjects that one can teach and there is always tutoring or teaching electives. If you liked to draw did you look into advertising? My brother studied to be a graphic artist went into advertising for a small company and ventured out in the field taking photos for websites he builds for others.

There used to be a push for kids to grow up and move away from home as soon as they finished school and then start their own family. Now people are more career orientated and living at home allows them to save money and focus on their career. Rent can be outrageous over here and living with strangers can be awkward.

When you take the list of what you like to do and put it together what career does it come up with?

[yorunaka]

I actually took a business degree so I thought about advertising.
I'm not keen on working in the capital though. I actually really dislike Manila so that cuts off a lot of work options for me since my hometown is just a small province.
I don't think the work itself really drains me. In my previous job, there were other aspects that really affected me. Politics was one of the main things.

And at the end of the day, drawing is still one of the key things I like. But I guess that says something about my motivation if I can't be driven enough. Just don't think it being as the main source of income is practical for me at the moment. While I'm gifted in a lot of various aspects, my mental/emotional stability needs work and doing arts isn't helping much in keeping things stable. I need to find a job that isn't super stressful so I can do stuff I like on the side.

[Lemon Cheesecake]

I think trying to find the least stressful job and make enough money so we can do what we like on the side is most people's aim. We do need to eat after all! Advertising does have deadlines so that can be stressful but I suppose it also depends on whether you are the one deciding what the advertisement is about or just the one doing the layout because if someone else is telling you what they want that can cut the decision making down.

My brother has been able to do some of his advertising work at home because he can use his computer and the internet. Is something like that an option for you?

[yorunaka]

I wanted to find something I could dedicate all my time to, I guess. But honestly, the only thing I can spend hours on end is reading - and not even books but fanfiction.

Clearly, you can't get a paid job from that. It's an act that's pure consumption. For you to get paid, you need to produce something.

And I don't have to worry about food for now at least. I computed once and if I don't overspend on stuff and there's no hyperinflation, my savings can probably last me for approximately 10 years. I still should get a job though. I guess that's one of the reasons why I also have no strong motivation. People who are really driven usually have something they really want. Whereas I've been spending my entire life telling myself that even if I want something, I don't really need it so it's fine to let go.

[Lemon Cheesecake]

on the bright side, you must have a fair amount saved then so you were smart about that. Even if it isn't our dream job if you can at least find things you like about it it gives us discipline and purpose.

what's that expression: "Idleness is the Seed of Unrest as Work is the Root of Stability ... whereas high unemployment is the breeding ground for social unrest and political instability."

[yorunaka]

Yeah I'm actually a person who actually hates taking risks. I've thought about quitting my old job for a few years before jumping the gun. And when I finally decided to, I was still pretty unsure.

I think I'm kinda blessed too in certain ways. A year and a half before I actually quit, I was assigned overseas so it really helped me in saving a lot. It also made me realize that even if I can eat real good food and buy whatever I wanted, it really wouldn't make me happy. I mean it's not like I expected it to. But the experience really does help in affirming things.

Honesly, being idle isn't such a bad thing for me? I know it sounds incredibly lazy. But I don't mind spending time at home and doing various stuff. Whenever dad or other people ask me "Aren't you bored?" I usually can't honestly say that I am because I find things to occupy my time with. And the "level of boredom" I have whether I work or am at home is pretty much the same.

I guess that's the main reason why thinking about working again stresses me out. I don't really want to work again. But I do know I have to.

[Lemon Cheesecake]

well, if you have the means to take some time off so that you aren't starving and you are keeping yourself busy then that's the same as if you were retired isn't it? Have you considered taking a less stressful job even if it pays less? I know what you mean about the risks of quitting though...I hated to quit without knowing what else I was going to do and trying to finally be strong enough to make that step is incredibly stressful.

I hope the right job will pop up for you and when it does you jump on it.

[yorunaka]

Lol yeah. I'm a retiree at 25.

I guess it just goes against what I've been taught. You have to do your best. Be the best person you can be. Always strive for more.

And I'm just here thinking. What if I don't want more? What if I just want to learn to be more content with what I have? What if I don't want to be as "successful" as everyone else?

And I do consider getting a less stressful job. I just don't have an answer to that yet. I'm thinking of a government post but as to what post exactly, I'm not sure. All I know is that family owned/Chinese owned corporations here in my country aren't the best places if I'm looking for a less stressful environment.

I take it that you're planning to quit too? Actually to me what was the most stressful was getting praised for it. In my mind I was like "Dude, I'm probably gonna mess up my life even more so please don't say that."

And thank you. And if you are planning on quitting too, I wish it for be as stress free as possible for you. And if you need someone to talk to, you can talk to me cause I would probably understand what you're going through. maybe not entirely but at least somehow.

[Lemon Cheesecake]

I actually like where I am at I just don't like the powers above that make the decisions we have to abide by when they are not thoroughly thought out or applicable for where we are at. Yes, it is a government job which is good on benefits. But I have all the responsibility and stress from accountability but not the power or authority to make changes nor the pay rate for what I am doing because I am doing someone else's job for them even though they get paid a lot more then I do. But really, I wouldn't get as much money as I do at another job because I really don't have the credentials, and I don't really want to go back to school, although I have thought about it.